Feeling : sad

It seems like the harder I try to NOT fight with Earl, the more it happens. I’m absolutely tired. I can’t take the fighting no more. I got so mad this morning, my entire body was shaking. It was hard to bite my words back and not say something I’d regret. I’m so sick of fighting and arguing all the time. It’s starting to get to me. I’m down almost all the time, I’m not concentrating on classes. I’m upset and frustrated 90% of the time. It seems like when I don’t say anything to him, or when I do, shit hits the fan, over and over again. I’m so tired of it. I’m at my breaking point. I can not deal anymore. When I talk to someone about it, I get bitched at, when I try to talk to him about it, he sighs, makes a big deal and tells me to quit whining. What’s a girl to do? The only place I have to vent is here, on the internet. I’m inches away from just giving up completely, telling him to take his ring back and go to Kay Jay. I love this man more than my heart can hold and it hurts me to think that it may come to us breaking up. I don’t know what I would do. But that’s it for now. Later!

Feeling : crappy  Hearing : murmurs

Me, hi, how are ya? Good, that’s great! So I’m in week whatever of class and it’s going. That’s about it, not bad, not good, just going. I have 2 hours until class and I will probably stay right where I am at until then. I have tons of reading to do for that said class, but eh, I’ll be alright. I have yet to receive three of my PAID books from the hellish ecampus. I had to check out one of them from the school library. What a sweet woman she was, she let me check out the book that was in repair! Bless her lovely heart. I really should read it and jot down some notes, but eh. I might read it today, and return it in the morning. I do NOT want to go to class today. But I have to, I need to. So I guess this is it for now, no exciting news I guess.

I was going to post this in the other post, but thought otherwise haha. I don’t think I have a job anymore. I’ve not called in or went in so… you know what that means right? Haha. That’s okay, I don’t like Wal-Mart anyway. I need a new job anyways. I’ve been putting applications in, so we’ll see what happens. Later!

… and so far it’s okay. Just colder than crap. I don’t have one of the books I need for tonight, so I had to go to the library to make copies. That sucks. I’m totally lost in MATH 131. So I may need to get a tutor!!! Dun dun duuuunnnn. Haha. Everything just is not clicking in my head. My English (Enco for further reference) is going okay, I like the professor. History (Humn further reference) is alright and I’ve only went to Appalachian Lit (App. Lit) once, and tonight is my 2nd class. Yuck for 3 hour long classes on Wednesday nights haha. But for now that’s it on class.

So I’m a student again. Yay I guess. I started yesterday. I went and registered and confirmed yesterday. It was… overwhelming. Class is…. Odd I suppose. I feel so old compared to some of the others haha. Go figure. Just a small update for now.